This is Meskerem while we were in Disneyland. The last few days she and I have been having some very deep conversations. I am not sure what all she is processing right now, but what she is talking to me about is big stuff. She seems to be struggling with what being adopted really means. She is very worried about her birth-mother and the other evening told me that she wished her birth-mother would come here or else go to Heaven where she would be safe. What sort of life must her mother have been living for her to wish that? She has been saying, "Mommy, you not my real mommy" off an on, but never in a defiant or mean way. She just seems to be working through what it means that she was sent to a new country and a new life without really having any say in it. This evening I told her that I chose to have her and Kidist come be my children, but that I understand that it was hard for her to not have any choice in the matter.
All of that is pretty big, but was even bigger was that happy silly child in the picture up there was sitting in my lap crying her eyes out because there were people in her world that didn't know and love God. On Easter, she got upset that I bought them presents and gave them Easter baskets. She wanted to make sure that the day was all about God and what Jesus did for us by dying on the cross and rising again. When she found out that there were people who didn't believe in the resurrection, she said, "But we need tell them." I told her that most of my friends have heard a lot more about God since I started the adoption process. She can't seem to fathom that God is using their presence here as evidence of His power and love. Heck, I can hardly fathom all that God has done in the last two years.
This Easter was also the 1st Anniversary of us coming home as a family. The growth and development that has happened in all of us in that period of time continues to boggle my imagination. I will do my best to get some more updated photos and such up here at some point. We have a couple of crazy weeks coming up and then hopefully we can calm down for a little bit.